I'm Rasmus Kuha, a 22 year old Media student from Finland and the man behind BWDY and In My Sleep.

 

I've been creating different media since 2015, but only recently started actually studying it.

I have always had a certain interest towards horror and mixed with my own imagination, I decided to start expressing myself through different media.

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After different mental health problems, most notably depression and anxiety, and developing some levels of insomnia, my sleep deprived mind started doing fun things. 

I began seeing nightmares more often, but after a while they didn't scare me, but inspire me. They had various interesting narratives, themes and events and I wanted to bring them to life in some form or another.

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HISTORY

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2012

I first dipped my toes in music production back in 2012, but being only aged 11, it was difficult and barebones.

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2013

I started to have trouble sleeping. Difficulties ranging from restlessness due to ADHD, diagnosed at age 6, or wild imagination, I eventually started seeing more and more morbid dreams.

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2015

I started to more or less get the hang of FL Studio, and has been my main DAW (digital audio software aka. music production software) since.

I was also already a consumer of various different types of content on YouTube around this time.

 

I had already started seeing more horror themed dreams, and a big portion of my near-daily YouTube content was horror related and true crime, and these probably only further fed my interest and imagination.

I was also already well versed with Creepypasta  and the SCP Foundation.

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Around this time I had been diagnosed with Medium- to severe Depression and Anxiety Disorder.

 

 

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2016

I met my lovely girlfriend, and we've been dating ever since. This positively affected my mental health, and she still does to this day.

I also started uploading my music to my now debunked  Soundcloud account.

I also started recording gameplay videos, although never published them.

My interest in photography had also grown through my extremely visual girlfriend. 

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2019

I was studying third year Visualt Arts in high school, but my mental health spiraled due to school stress and problems in my personal life, and I first started writing stories to kind of vent.

Where as before, my dreams were horror themed but I liked them and they inspired me. Now however, I woke up in the middle of the night sweaty, scared and anxious. Night terrors were more severe and this eventually ends up leading to the most interesting part in my story.

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2020

I dropped out of school. Couldn't be there, bad interior air didn't mix with my asthma, and I asked to get remote schooling, and all help was denied. My already bad mental health dropped further, demotivating me. 

Only a couple months after I took a sick leave, the Covid-19 pandemic hit Finland, and all of a sudden remote schooling was available without effort. I lost all motivation to school and in an act of pettiness, dropped out. Rest of 2020 had me mostly in my home playing games, makin music, writing stories and focusing on my creativity.

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I got my music on Spotify, which obviously had me very excited.

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2021

I got a few measly janitors jobs, and made advancements with my project. I started to branch out further into more visual story telling in photography and video material. Experimenting with audio-visual stuff, mixing imagery and sound to express different feelings and emotions. 

Only problem was that my previous mental health problems weren't really dealt with. And eventually...

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2022

I quit my job. Stress and anxiety were high, but at least I got mental health treatment through my work.

Now sitting at home with nothing to do again, I decided to do something risky and applied for a Bachelor's degree in media and visual expression.

In other words, I went to study the thing I loved and had always reverted to doing when times were hard. And I've been loving almost every second of it. Almost, because it's still school. 

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2023

Here we are, and although I still have problems with mental health, I now have regular treatment and medication. I still have trouble sleeping, but now less. And the best thing of all, my imagination is still going wild!

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